Tuesday, June 18, 2013

Black Magic

A master of deceit, illusion of
The mind, it tricks the unsuspecting heart
With clever oaths and thieves you of your love,
Sweet cherry kisses just to slash your guard
And weaken your defenses, seeping through
Small cracks in your core; it’s never real
The charm won’t last forever, like incense brew
Though some deny they trap themselves in hell,
Their ignorance backfires, the spell’s divine,
And when it’s done its deed you’re cursed
By haunting memories and torturous times
It hurts you more if they had been your first,

But in the end, black magic always knows
Of when it comes the time to be deposed.


Embarking on a Journey

Embarking on a journey through a world
Where sweet delusionary dreams deceive,
Imagination takes you on a tour
And like a puppet, trapped, just cannot leave
This realm that lures you deep inside
And sends you on a journey down a stream,
In desperate attempts, you wish to guide
The path but no, the fate already deemed
You helpless as you’re dragged along; you try
To weave through currents, pulled towards the source
A bystander you are, similarly
A higher power, watching from aboard

Upon arrival, at the end you say

Farewell, and read again another day.

Catching a Snowflake

Twirling, swirling
Crystals blindingly sparkle in my eye
Delicately, gracefully dance
From a place beyond the sky
Every unique crystal just
Looks so fine
Chasing, running, pursuing,
Will it be mine?
Where did it go?

Was it all a lie?

What Ever Happened?

What ever happened to our pure blue sky?
Where sunshine beamed like golden coins at dawn
And shined across the seas, while up so high
Behind a brilliant blaze of red, yet quickly gone
As night has wrapped our world in veils of stars.
Where moonlight shared its dazzling light, displayed
Its endless beauty, lovely from afar,
Still visible through clouds and never faded.
Where stars would add life and colour to
The midnight sky, and spread themselves across
The world above, radiating high and low
Among us, hope, when we feel that it’s lost

But we are slowly giving up our sky
To choke on smog, committing suicide.


I Met A Daffodil

I still remember her, a daffodil
Who curved into one color, radiant gold
As honey poured from pitchers. Freshly mowed
Green grass was her perfume, and she could fill
And satiate me; my heart she tore
With simple smiles and piercing sea foam gazes
I was entranced, my mind was left a haze,
Her hair was just like freshly shucked, gold corn

Before I met her, life for me had been
A moonless sky – and yet she shot across,
A burning meteor leaving her own mark,
The brilliancy, however, was not seen
She disappeared beyond the horizons,
Now everything has vanished in the dark.


Saturday, February 11, 2012

Concrete Angel

She walks to school with the lunch she packed
Nobody knows what she's holding back
Wearing the same dress she wore yesterday
She hides the bruises with the linen and lace

The teacher wonders but she doesn't ask
It's hard to see the pain behind the mask
Bearing the burden of a secret storm
Sometimes she wishes she was never born



Somebody cries in the middle of the night
The neighbors hear but they turn out the light
A fragile soul caught in the hands of fate
When morning comes it will be too late

A statue stands in a shaded place
An angel girl with an upturned face
A name is written on a polished rock
A broken heart that the world forgot

Through the wind and the rain she stands hard as a stone
In a world that she can't rise above
But her dreams give her wings and she flies to a place
Where she's loved, concrete angel

Tuesday, January 31, 2012

Fatal Selfishness

You looked at me, yet never noticed me
You spoke with sense, yet never felt perhaps
I asked as to why you'd create this gap
You gave no answer, nothing to my pleas
How could you not remember, all those years
We spent together? Countless hours
Experienced, just like two lovely flowers
Grew side by side upon the ocean floors

T'was nothing but an ignorant, blissful life
That now is crushed; it's more than I can cope
Your candle life was blown out in a puff
The emptiness can't satisfy a wife
As selfish as myself, but I had hoped
Your hollow shell, just might have been enough

Smothering Memories

Silently, she sits on the picnic blanket
dolls in a circle
their smiles, deceptive and plastered

all staring intently at the girl as she
grips the plastic tea pot,
its sides gleaming under the sun

and she pours it violently
tea spilling on the blanket
staining it with

nightmares and smothering memories
that never
disappear

Final Recount

Fingers gingerly tie the knot
Breaths become shallow
Sweat glistening above her eyelids

She takes one step forward, one step down
Her feet never touch the ground
Death caught her
                                     
                           Before she hit the ground.

No Control

It

Enshrouds you
Enslaves you
Envelopes your mind

Tears you
Wears you
Claws at you from behind

Rearing like an angry beast
You cannot contain it, overflowing
You don't know why

No control

Stomping
Shredding
Screaming inside
Begging
Pleading
Head in a haze
Deep breaths
Frustration
Fingernails digging in
Irritated
Snappy
Regret
I don't want this
Don't hurt others
Stop it
Stop it
Stop it


Why am I so angry

Tuesday, January 24, 2012

Absence Makes the Heart Go Wander

The trains are always leaving
The doors are always closing
All the pretty pinprick people
Are cascading down the stair

The buildings stand too straight up
The windows are too glassed up
The drifting dreams are dying
But no one seems to care

The sun is still a-rising
The clock is still a-ticking
I've been lonely-longing-lusting
It's still hard for me to say

The roads felt truly angry
The smiles feel truly empty
You argued, asked, abandoned this-
I love you anyway

The lights are blinking on now
The faces lit I don't know
The nights are noxious nothings
And the days are far too long

All the footsteps have your pacing
All shoulders have your posture
I turn to shake the chance
I'd search if I were strong

Guess I'll move in with a boyfriend
Guess I'll move into the suburbs
Find a healthy, happy husband
Who'll put sprinklers on the lawn

My songs can gather dust-motes
My life can gather mosses
Don't dare disturb me, dearest;
If you look for me, I'm gone.

Life's merely a quest

We are all
Born dead
The end exists
Before anything begins

If living
Is a constant quest for awareness
The awareness we gain at the end is the real goal
In other words, death
Is the discovery and complete understanding
Of the end


We are not permitted to seek awareness
Those who cannot transcend death
Will not find awareness in anything.

Not Worth It

I'm so tired of flying with these broken, battered wings
So many muddled memories, so many painful etchings
Bloody scars slashed unmercifully into my heart
Reminding me of the pain whenever we are apart
No safe place left in this world
My only refuge was ripped away and hurled
Far away, never again to be here
However I can't help but just hope you'll magically appear
Death is painless it's only life that hurts
Why do I even bother with my pitiful efforts?
I don't want to cry precious tears for you anymore
You're not worth making my heart sore.

A Heavy Heart

Does your heart ever hurt deep inside
Whenever you breathe you just want to cry
Crawl into your head just to hide
Never come out, why this guy?

There's plenty of people, but none like him
He's one of a kind, he was special to me
My heart would beat fast, my heart would beat slow
There's a lock to my love, but he had the key

All I ever wanted was for him to talk to me
Is that too much to ask, I don't understand
Everyone rejects me, ignores me in the end
They're all the same; it's talk to the hand

Always staring at your phone, waiting for his text
All excited when the ringtone goes, but it'll never come
He used to talk with me all the time
The cruel game he played, I'm just plain dumb

I'll deal with it, is this anything new
I just wished in the beginning I knew.

Monday, January 16, 2012

One Big Room, Full of BAD BITCHES

Gucci Gucci Louis Louis
Fendi Fendi Prada
The basic bitches wear that shit
So I don't even botha :)

Chem sucks

Almost one in the morning
And I haven't done my chem
It's so hard and confusing 
I'd rather sew a shirt hem

It always leads to late
Procrastination at night
By the time I start my homework
The sky is far from being light.

I like oranges

I really like oranges
They smell really good
They're tasty and juicy
I'd eat them all if I could.


Yummy oranges.

Teddies

I wish I had a teddy bear
Who would talk to me at night
He'd take me real close
And hug me real tight

When I have nothing to do
Or I'm just feeling down
He'll talk to me and say
Why the big fat frown?

Don't be a goofball
Self pity is just lame
If you're just sad all the time
It only creates shame

When we can't go out
We can always play inside
We'll talk about anything
And make the best of our time

I wish I had a teddy bear
Who would talk to me at night
We'll sleep tight together
And the bed bugs won't bite

<3

I had a camel

I had a camel in my closet
But I knew my parents wouldn't approve
So I took that little camel
And turned it into goo.